January 4th, 2005
Blessed and feel guilty about it
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I have not been updating this site for a few days although I wasn’t really busy. There are quite a few things I would like to write about, but the recent tsunami has been weighing me down and holding me back to submit any post. Though I cry easily seeing sad things and little things can make me happy, the sadness or happiness never last long. I get over them very fast. But this time, the images of the media footages and sad accounts of the survivors keep appearing in my mind.
Well, probably due to the extensive coverage of the calamity (however, comparing to foreign media, I think Singapore’s coverage is still quite subtle), it makes me feels guilty to indulge in my very blessed life and rattles on about how happy, please or amusing it is to be with my little baby. Seeing parents crying and almost driven to the brink of insanity due to the loss of their little ones, our joyfulness seems to be a censurable misconduct.
Anyway, I am planning to watch fewer programme like “I, Witness”, which totally left me in tears, and hopefully make myself less affected by it.
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January 4th, 2005 at 4:42 pm
I share your thoughts. I felt sad for the victims but at the same time, helpless. I can never be as selfless as the volunteers who flew all the way to the Tsumani-hit area, all I can do is to offer my little monetary help. But these few days as I read and watch about the plights of the thousands of children who are made orphaned and homeless and not as strong as the adults to ’snatch’ the relief aid, I grow increasing perturbed, not knowing how much of the Red Cross collection is benefiting the children. I’m thinking of making a direct donation to UNICEF and hope it helps the children in a more direct way.
January 4th, 2005 at 6:14 pm
I could fully understand the emotional ‘ordeal’ because I felt the same way for the past few days. The images that were flashed on CNA kept coming back to me as well. I even dreamt of running for my life during one of the nights. Rather tormenting to see the images of dead corpses. Same thing happened to me during April when Nicoll Highway collapsed. Also had a dream then about the collapsed. Hope that time would be able to heal all wounds.
January 4th, 2005 at 6:24 pm
Reading this entry of yours made me felt so guilty about my recent updates in my blog… I agree with you.. while others are crying over their lost love.. we or should i say I am basking in the joy of my lively baby… kinda insensitive… Nevertheless, my consolation was that I’ve donated in kind and in cash. Though I hope I can do more… Felt so small in the face of such a tragic disaster and all we could do was to sit beside our TV sets for further updates of which we get nothing but the constant update of it’s death tolls….
January 5th, 2005 at 3:52 pm
Ivy, I am sorry if I made you feel guilty, it never was my intention to do so. Please don’t think that it is insensitive to enjoy the baby, as they really bring us a lot of joy and comfort. Wouldn’t it be unfair to them if we try to control of emotion and react to them solemely when they are happy. They are afterall babies, probably wouldn’t be able to understand anything even if we try explaining to them.