The kid was in a weird mood last night. It started as a happy night, because we brought her to the pasar malam nearby and she enjoyed herself tremendously with the kiddy train rides. But her unusual behaviour set in when we were on our way home. She usually prefers to walk, however, she insisted to be carried most of the time. When she asked to be put down, she would then insisted frantically to be carried again shortly after.

She was alright for a few minutes when we reached home, then she started running towards me and clung on to me again. All the while, I was asking her what she was so terrified of, she just replied ” 蚂蚁，怕怕”. I tried my best to reassure her that there are no ants and ants aren’t terrifying at all, but she wouldn’t buy them.

I needed to use the bathroom, so I thought after hugging her for a while; she should be calm enough to be offloaded. Instead, she turned hysterical when I tried to pry her off my body. At this juncture, she will start crying frantically whenever I move my body slightly and hugged on to me like a super leech, as if afraid that I am going to abandon her. She buried her head tightly onto my chest, insisted that she was afraid of the ants and continued screaming away for another 15min or so. That was rather freaky and I think the bathroom is not a good place to calm her down after all.

I also tried giving her milk, food, toys and switching on her favourite shows, but nothing could distract her from the unknown “ants”. Well, I guess nothing beats the cool air-conditioner and the soft bed, I think they made her more comfortable and less irritable. She slowly calmed down and fell asleep after another 30min or so of crying and leeching on to me.

I still have no idea where the unknown fear came from. I am sure she wasn’t trying to seek attention, because she had all the attention from me then. Maybe it was just some unexplained uncontrollable emotional outbreak. I must admit that I was most irritated and annoyed by her during her screaming moments. I wasn’t loosing my temper, but contemplated the idea of throwing her into a room and let her cry her heart out. I am glad I didn’t do that, I knew I am going to regret if I did. Not too sure if I am too yielding to her weird behaviour, but I guess I pass the test of not loosing my cool. heh.