Watching TV on the bed always make me extra drowsy. This morning, while watching Elmo’s World with the kid, the sleepiness struck me again, so I thought I would catch a quick nap since the kid seem totally absorbed by the show and didn’t really care whether I was paying attention or not.

So quietly, I drifted into my dreamland. She didn’t disturb me at all until the show finished, and she started pounding on me. I was so tired, and subconsciously went over to the DVD player and repeated the show. I told her “Mama is very tired, let me sleep and don’t touch me.” The show satisfied her for a while, until it became choppy, the CD wasn’t in good condition. She started pushing me and jumping on me again. So I told her with a serious tone not to touch me and let me sleep. She seemed to understand and said, “Mama tired, no boom boom (meaning no jumping).” She remained peaceful for a while and then started all her irritating acts again. I was getting annoyed, and started giving her thighs a few smacking and she stopped. This repeated for a couple of times.

I knew those wasn’t any hard spanking, because there was no dramatic reaction coming from those smacking. I finally gave up the idea of napping with a jumping kid on the bed. After regaining my full consciousness, I was rather surprise that I actually smacked her thighs because she was disturbing my sleep. The only time I will smack her legs is when she jumps on sofa, which is extremely dangerous if she falls, otherwise, I am very sure I wouldn’t have done that even if she was screaming, crying, or acting willful and make me lost my temper.

Tiredness must have made me lose my ability to reason and remain compose. Well, tired parents tend to loose their temper more easily. Now, either I sleep earlier at night, or I better not take any nap with the kid around anymore, it is really hard to think properly when my mind is cannot process any information sensibly.