While putting both the children to bed last night, Zeeyau suddenly said to me she was scared. Must be the monster thing again, she has been imagining about monster lately and refuse to sleep in her own bed.

But no, she said she is afraid of growing up and turning 33 years old.

“哦，为什么呀？”

“我怕三十三岁的时候，妈妈会死掉，见不到妈妈了。”

Sob sob sob….I was caught off guarded, never expected that to come out of her mouth and was unprepared for a good response. Dumbfounded, I could only told her that by the time she is 33, I would only be 63 and that is as young as her 阿公 (grandpa) and I would still be strong enough to run, drive and do shopping with her. I think that answer more or less gave her a sense of relief, at least she won’t think I am going to die anytime soon!

We have talked about my mom not being around because she has passed away when I was around 30yr old, so she probably thought that she is to loose her mother around that age too. Must have been a stressful idea, but I think I should present her a more realistic answer in future, that all of us are going to leave this world eventually, though I am not going to disappear at 33. We will meet again in future, in heaven